“Bread Upon the Waters” –Ecclesiastes 11:1

The word bread has been entering my thoughts frequently this past week.

Over a week ago I was thinking about the word sacrament which lead me to the word eucharist, which is known by many as the Holy Communion. This is a ritual commemoration of Jesus’s last supper with his disciples. It comes from Greek eucharistia for “thanksgiving”. And “breaking bread” is a way of saying you are sharing your food with family and friends.

This week I got into a conversation with a boy in one of my classes about cooking. He told me that he likes to cook. When I asked him, “What do you like to cook?” , he responded that he liked to cook bread, and he specifically mentioned Monkey Bread.

I let our conversation end since school work was waiting for his attention. After school I researched Monkey Bread since I was unfamiliar with this name. I found a very easy recipe using Pillsbury Grand Biscuits. While I was looking at pictures of Monkey Bread, I thought it looked like it would be perfect for breaking bread with my family this coming Thanksgiving.

Just the other day I was picking up laundry detergent at the store, and I saw a large wall filled with Oreo cookies. Normally, I try to avoid these since they can be very addictive. Something made me take a closer look, and this is when I saw the Limited Edition Gingerbread Oreos .

As you can see the breads I have been seeing this week are both sweet breads. This thought made me remember a Persian meal I was served in Paris long ago.

There are sweet breads and then there are sweetbreads. “Sweetbreads” have a very misleading name because they are not sweet nor are they bread. They are the thymus and pancreas glands of animals.

When I was served a meal of sweetbreads long ago, it was whispered to me that it was pig brains, so I am not sure what I ate. I did not eat very much of it despite the risk of being rude to our host.

Historians think they are called sweetbreads because they are richer and more delicate than typical meats, and they are breads because the old English word for flesh was “braed”.

Today I am focused on the phrase…”bread upon the waters”… What does this mean? There are many interpretations of this phrase. The one I like has to do with spreading goodness into the world without the expectation of getting anything back in return.

This is an attitude I would like to adopt because expectations can set you up for disappointment and resentment, which is even worse. I would like to try and spread goodness for its own sake, and for no other reason.

As you can see here, words can be very tricky and have different meanings for different people. Words are symbols and language is an art form. When one is trying to understand the written word, we should look beyond our own personal connection to the words, and look into the history of their roots.

When reading the words of those that have lived before us, we cannot always rely on our first interpretation of their words. The author’s intention is not always how we interpret it.

The Sacrum, Our “Holy Bone”

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The sacrum is a triangular shaped bone located at the base of our spine.

It joins to a hip bone on each side of our body, and it forms part of our pelvis.

According to anatomy experts, it is a fusion of vertebrae that helps humans to walk.

The sacrum is an anchor point that holds the spinal column together with the pelvis.

Humans need a larger sacrum than other mammals because we walk upright.

The sacrum needs to be robust to give us extra stability for balance and mobility.

If you look up the word “sacrum”, you will learn that it means “sacred” in Latin. The Romans apparently called it “os sacrum”, which translates to the “holy bone”, and the Greeks called this bone “hieron osteon”, which also translates to the “holy bone”.

Back in the summer of 2013 I had a vivid dream which started me on my crazy journey of numbers and visions, and it gave me a feeling of disconnection and uneasiness. This feeling and way of thinking was prolonged and took me many years of emotional struggle to overcome.

In this vivid dream it felt as if a light being was inside of me. I was reminded today of this event because during that dream it felt as if this light entity had touched my lower back at the base of my spine. I remember thinking and wondering why had it touched me there. I was trying to get it to touch the heart in my chest.

Today when the words sacred and sacrament came into my mind, my thoughts and research led me to the word “sacrum”. Now, I think this is where the light being had touched me way back then. I don’t really know what this all means. I think my mind is still trying to make sense of what happened to me. Thankfully, I have recovered from the madness for the most part, though stray thoughts linger from time to time.

I am at peace with myself and my God.

Water Under the Bridge

Hopefully, the water under your bridge flows freely like a river.

A stench can arise in stagnate water unless care is taken to maintain it.

Time is like the flowing river under a bridge.

It constantly moves in one direction.

When you look down the water is never the same.

Change is inevitable.

Bottles with notes are carried away.

You can watch it for a while, but never forever.

We do not have the vision of God.

We must accept there are forces beyond our human control.

We can run simulations in hopes of forecasting the future.

However, even the best simulations cannot possibly predict

All the factors in an open system.

We must be humble, and not imagine powers we do not have.

Hocus Pocus Focus

Many things can hide in plain sight. It can be very frustrating to look and look for something that has been right under my nose the whole time.

It can be both startling and unnerving when I can suddenly see magic in the natural world. By magic I mean something so incredibly rare and beautiful that it defies logic, and it is more incredible when it is found in unlikely places.

The truth is the beauty has always been there. It is my vision that has been too selective and narrow.

How can our vision miss these things? Why isn’t our vision wider and more encompassing?

When our velocity is moving too fast we can miss many things we pass without seeing. Also our minds have a tendency to discount and dismiss things we feel are unimportant. Our mind and our vision narrows down to one track as we race toward a goal. When we slow down and open our minds and our hearts, our vision can expand and have more depth. When this happens we are less likely to miss miracles that can hide in plain sight.

My goal this year is to search for all the talent that is hidden in our students that might have been missed in the past.

Subtle Lane

I once lived on a Subtle Lane. It was a lane that ended since it looped around like a horseshoe or a cul-de-sac.

To get there you had to drive on a Hunter Road and then enter a Blue-Gate Lane, which led to Subtle Lane.

I like the word “subtle”. It comes from Latin “sub”– meaning beneath plus “tela”–meaning weaving.

It is interesting to think that we lived beneath the weaving.

My old house number is another story.

Behind the fence along our backyard property line lived John Riggins of Redskin fame. It was rumored he had a pig or pigs that lived back there behind the fence. I never saw evidence of this nor did I ever see him.

This was during the era of “The Hogs” of Redskin fame. They were the offensive line that protected John Riggins and Joe Theismann. “The Hogs” helped the Redskins under coach Joe Gibbs win three Super Bowl championships.

And then there were the “hogettes”. They were a group of men that were huge fans. They would dress up in old lady drag outfits and they would wear pig snout noses. They would cheer on the team looking like this.

Their era has ended. The Redskins have recently been pressured to change their team name in order to be more culturally sensitive.

I never really got into watching football. My father’s favorite team was the Kansas City Chiefs.

As for Subtle Lane, we lived in a nice house with a pool in the backyard. My parent’s marriage ended there.

Noticing My Shadow

I lost my shadow for awhile, whether it went somewhere

or whether I was blinded, I will not know.

It is larger than life now on my bedroom walls.

Outside, beyond the four walls of the house, it fades away.

My eyesight becomes filled with living breathing color,

And my shadow seems to shrink.

Shadows still exist when the sun shines brightly in the sky.

My camera brings them back for me.

Life outside is much more exuberant than shadows.

Life is touchable, and I can stroke it with my hand.

When night falls and I am back inside the walls

My shadow clings to me, and sometimes it can appear

Larger than life, even though it has no weight.

The Morning Moon

The waning morning moon was visible today.

Cloaked in sheer chiffon clouds, moving slowly,

Spreading thin in wispy patches.

My eyes gazed upon its beauty.

I could feel my spirit lift, knowing the moon’s presence

Was my protection from darker spirits hiding in man-made corners.

I hope this feeling stays with me as I move forward throughout my day.

Cha Cha Cha

“Guantanamera…” (Cha, cha, cha.) “Guantanamera…” (Cha, cha, cha.)

I keep thinking about a woman dancing down the street, wild and free. (Step, step, step.)

She moves forward three and then back three. This repeats over and over. (Step, step, step.)

Her hips move with exaggeration, keeping time with the beat.

She changes her pattern by sliding left three and then sliding back right. This too repeats.

Seamlessly she returns to her previous motion, swinging her hips forward three and then back three again.

If her forward strides are longer than her backward strides,

She can dance slowly and sensually down the street.

The eyes of men follow her, though none dare interrupt her.

They know she will cue them when she is ready.

This music is running through my head and ears.

I let it go and it keeps coming back to me.

I can see myself in this woman. I was born in Guantanamo Bay.

My hips are getting older now. I think this syncopated motion could

Warm them up and do them good. The Caribbean is calling out my name.

“Guantanamera …” (Cha, cha, cha.)

Open Your Heart

From the darkest corner in the room comes a voice clear and crisp.

I am here by myself, and yet I am not alone.

God lives within us all, and I have opened my heart to his.

A blue sky, warm sands, and a life giving sun resides within his world.

The water here flows free and wild for those who come to drink.

The birds here fill the air with joyful song.

They invite us all, who can hear them, to sit and listen,

And to embrace nature with love and care.

My Thoughts. My Dreams. My Life by Miss Katherine June Hartell

I recently found an old diary I kept from Jan. 1973 — Aug. 1976. I was 13 soon to be 14 when I began to write in it. Today I read an entry I made on Oct. 21, 1974. I was 15 years old. I had to write a poem for a high school English class. I could not believe I found this entry because I have been thinking about this poem recently. I did not remember that I had written it into my diary. I thought it was lost in time. Here it is:

The gypsy’s sleek silhouette danced in the firelight,

as she braided her mane around and around her head.

The distant chorus of strangers mingled in the humid air.

The gypsy’s soft fragrant voice lulled the fireflies into slumber.

The howling wolves on yonder hill spread a silent fear.

The full glistening moon whispered legends of centuries past.

The gypsy danced an ancient rite to revive the lost souls of Satan’s men.

The distant humming of the strangers rose to a peak and then ceased.

The night was young, as the lost souls roamed to revenge past grief.

The gypsy gently strummed a lute, an heirloom of forgotten lore.

The music hung in the air like a cobweb woven by a Widow,

Snaring any unwary stranger hypnotized by the mood of the night.

The gypsy ends her song and listens. Her lost lover calls out from the darkness.

The fire dies to embers. The wolves’ howls lower to moans.

The gypsy wanders aimlessly into the darkness, searching endlessly for those forgotten.

It is now 47 years later, and I want to thank God I am not the gypsy. I am now married and my surname has been changed to Krein.